This pain is what I deserve
It gives me strength later
But I deserve the weak spell it places me in
For now
I know that later it will be different
That I will move on
That I will not stumble in the face of these thoughts
But for now
I weep in front of people
People who know nothing of what consumes me
Nor do they actually care
Because I am just a stranger
Who doesn't look at the good side of life
Who's actions are lazy
Who's eyes are sharp and sting every surface they see
My stuttering heart kills my mood
My chest caves in and my thoughts halt
All I see is her
All I see is him
Then they're gone
And that will be my future if I let them continue;
nothing