I don't know what to think, what to feel, or what to do. I have so many emotions bottled up inside Im like a rain cloud ready to bring on a storm. He says he loves me but then destroys me.
Over.
And over.
And over.
And over.
Continuously, like its a natural habit.
How can a single human being be so cruel to someone who gives there life to them.
I feel unhealthy not from not eating right ,
because i do,
and not from not exercising enough,
because i do,
but from concealing my feelings in a jar too small.
Living everyday as if the pain is not eating me from the inside, screaming to be let out.
Holding my breath for as long as possible until i have to gasp for oxygen, but even then thats not enough.
Not merely mad, but disappointed , and not only in him for lying but in me for containing excessive hope.
Hope that this love would be epic and this story would be magical and that everything would be almost perfect.