I wonder if you'd want to know
I named all of my demons after you
And
They haunt me in my sleep

When I was 14 I fell asleep in April
And dreamed of bones and
I'm not sure I've really ever woken up
Since

When I lost 5 pounds I never saw a
difference

When I lost 10 pounds my mother said I was
looking good

When I lost 20 pounds I stopped drinking anything because
I felt water had calories

When I lost 30 my mother held me on her lap
And held my bones together for me

When I lost 35  started fainting every morning
And
The doctors could no longer easily find my
Blood pressure

When I lost 40 people started to stare
And food made me cry

When I lost 45 it hurt to walk and to
lay down
It hurt to eat
It hurt to breathe and
I started throwing up my empty
Stomach

The mind plays tricks on those that
decide
nourishment is not needed

Eat.