So here I stand a somewhat heartless man wounds are healing yet still open thoughts about taking my own life but I'm cope n

But in the next breath I'm praying and hope n I don't tie this loose around my neck and start choking

From every direction I feel these pressures as they come camouflaged as my stressors

My family,? Yea they pretty curious wondering if I've become delirious saying,"I never smile and remain so ******* serious,

Or, "how is he dealing with these feelings he's feeling he should give his life to God and they ask me am I willing, but Im just chilling lol