My one and only big brother Ryan. We used to be so close, no matter how many times you had hurt me emotionally and physically , I've always known you loved me.

Its killing me inside the 4 hour distance between us, all our Saturday mall walks just to get ice cream,the times we swam and i used to splash you with water, to the time where we fought over crazy stupid stuff and stayed mad at eachother for days but you cracked first and always said sorry to our deep face to face conversations, to the times where you called me crazy as hell.

You've become so busy whenever i see you its only for awhile and then you gone again. I never knew i miss you so much in my life time. I have never had this much pain when my tears feel like blades cutting me in half.

But even though we miles and hours
away and i have no car nor money i would walk if i have to just to feel your arms around me and that warm smile you give everytime you with me.

Oh my dear brother Ryan how i miss you so much. but soon this pain will be over cause i know you'll be around,  i know now you miss me too.

thank you for being the best brother a girl could ever ask for.