your breathing becomes increasingly
heavier
deeper
louder
stronger
as i allow every inch of my being
to sink into you

i watch your lips
as they move discreetly

youre asleep
but i kiss them anyway

and this would be okay
if you loved me
cared for me
felt anything for me

but i was just a call
at 1 am
followed by
a half mile walk
to your door

and i end up here
i always end up here
every time

your hand on my
bare back
and you dont know
but i can see you

and i think
youre beautiful

but to you
tonight
im just the girl
who happened to fall
asleep with you
after allowing you
to do whatever you wanted
to me

and tomorrow?
tomorrow ill be
a walk of shame
and a conversation
topic

but im okay with that
because im okay with you
& im with you and
that makes me feel
okay

so ill continue to
delicately package all
of these thoughts
and feelings that
have managed to create
a hurricane inside of me
and instead of handing
them to you
with my unusually
fragile hands
ill hide them in the
crevices that youll
never be able to touch
or see
and never knew
were there

because im a fool
if i think im anything
more than a
call at 1 am
followed by a
half mile walk
to your
door