they say the truth hurts
they were right
I did **** up last night
I get stupid and mad and scared
and depressed and anxious and paranoid
I care
but I guess it doesn't show
because I'm left with nothing
I set the bar so low
that now I am nothing

sometimes I just don't want to wake up
reality is my cancer
and it's reality that is destroying me
my fantasy of being a better person
a person who people love
a person who people admire
but that's just a fantasy
and the reality is quite the opposite
I hate myself and I'm still cocky
I'm over dramatic
I am a **** up

I just want to be happy
but even when I am
I manage to ruin it

sorry