Bright, angled footsteps crossing Our lawn at 3 a.m. A quick, blurred tumble into the front door
It’s loud and you wake us But no one sush's you anymore No one comes downstairs to try and get you to sleep
We can smell the intoxication below us and We can feel your dizziness while we’re Warm and safe in our beds Listening to the tip-tip of the rain on the roof and the clank-clank Of newly opened bottles of Miller Light
I lost my faith in my Lord and My mother the 5th of June when Her soul vanished in the warm, Overlapping evenings She ****** my anticipation dry With her long gulps
When I asked her to stop she chuckled and looked me dead in the eye “But what, will have then?”
I didn’t have an answer to her impossible questions And Empty requests because I Dream too Of better places and better faces but Mother I love you and
We know she has a problem, My father says I didn’t ask for this He says I didn’t either I say
What doesn’t mommy come to my soccer games? My choir recitals Or to tuck me in anymore I ask
Then I remember she has a new best friend A friend unfailing and persistent Who boosts her mood and her self exhilaration Much higher than we ever will
I don’t mind it so much now Time has its concepts and Addiction has its play-by-plays
I am a working progress And so is my mother
She’s starting to cook now, Investigating recipes like she used to Investigate mixed drinks
And my fathers happier Turning up the football games louder And firing the grill up sooner
I ask her more questions Making up for all the lost time We never spent together but
She doesn’t apologize because What has she done? Other than skip my 8th grade graduation For a rendez-vous With her needle and
What has she done? Other than tear down All the walls I have built of trust and