in the empty hallway where the wood falls in line with my heels and the sunbeams are warm across the grain, full-steam into my toes, that sink beneath the floorboards and root into the foundation where plant muck takes residence between my veins, it's chilly in this house but most of me is still on top and the dust bends lights off the windows is stained on the wall and somewhere from the kitchen the smell of cider wraps around my calves.