it's those memories I miss
when everything was new
everything just felt amazing
all of my sadness, fear, paranoia
just washed away under ocean waves
is it bad that I want to be washed away too?
I keep thinking, asking myself what I could do
but my mind won't respond now
it's my fault for being a hypocrite
"don't rely on people" I said
and then I relied on people
I was too busy trying to help others than help myself
maybe I'd be better if I listened
because everyone just flees away
and I need someone close to talk to
but they just leave
and sometimes I wonder
what would happen if I did the same