The love i have for him is so unspeakable,
Its so special,
So heartfelt,
So warm...but ****, loving him is killing me.
When im with him everything is so right, perfect and in place,
But as soon as we part everything shatters.
My mind has this habit of thinking anytime he is not with me he is with someone else.
After all he did cheat right.
How can i train my mind to think how it used to.
To not think that every other moment he is entertaing someone else.
I didnt know his mistakes from the past would affect me so much.
I didnt know it could hurt this bad.
This feeling of uncertainty aches like no other.
Im in love with someone who has bad habits, and it scares me but i cant let go.
I thought love meant hanging in there until things get better.
I thought it was two imperfect people who even though had flaws saw the best in each other.
Thats why i hold on because i see the better side of him...
But how long can i keep holding on...im scared.
I cant deal with anymore heartbreak.
Ive felt enough