Snowcat,
Robotic heart beats turned into an unforgettable flatline
Growing up with a bestfried that silenced every bit of fear you've ever felt does something to you

The past 4 years I've wondered what my life would look like if your heart was still pumping.
For 54 hours I watched you lay there lifeless
As machines turned you into a puppet because your lungs couldn't preform the task alone

Your body swollen and beaten by a flipping car and an intense impact that killed your father instantly

I can imagine your head hitting the windshield
As my head pounds from the thought of you being in pain

I can imagine you screaming "DADDY!!!"
As my heart breaks just as easily as every window in the car did

So as I write this eulogy
My hands shake and my paper becomes the pool we swam through the week before the accident

C.A.L
Lover of outdoors, perfect hand holder, and dream catcher
Your heart was more beautiful than the moon that I gaze at every night
238,900 miles away ( something only you would know )
Which is how far I feel from you as they lay your coffin 6 feet below the ground I'm standing on.

Your dimples could steal anyone's heart.
Your eyes. Oh your eyes I would **** for
I miss the laugh that made me laugh harder and the hugs that made me hug tighter.

You Snowcat were the love I never got to feel

As your heart stops mine does too because living a life without you doesn't seem like much of a life at all