I remember

Being hungry
The people in the park that fed us for free
Our only place, our favorite place, next to you and our creek
Their dollars donated to our grumbling tummies
Yours to your next drink

I remember

Growing up wondering why love looked so painful
Why Momma cried when she kissed you
beds made under bridges
And not minding, cause we missed you

I remember

Your three best friends Jack John and jose
Momma fighting for us to see you
How she always found a way
Wondering why she was always blotched with bruises when you went away

I remember

A train ride to what turned out to be tomorrow
Learning to live a life that wasn't filled with sorrow
Looking into the eyes of a woman who hasn't seen her own dignity in so long
Realizing how much you really cost her
Hating myself for never catching on

I remember

Being 15 with daddy issues
In a lonely world a lonely girl
How could I still miss you?
Explaining to my brothers what I really takes to be a man
And stumbling cause I'd never really seen one
finally telling them if you love and always love, you'll always be one

I remember hearing your voice for the first time in years
Flash back ten years
"I'm gonna die someday" in my ears
I remember wondering what you were trying to accomplish
Daddy's little girl gets bed time stories rot with anguish

And i'm back to reality in time for " im sorry "
And my ten year old self "now you want me?"
So weighed down with questions I never got to ask, not knowing if there worth it
You never gave a ****, and here I am worried that your hurting

I guess naive is naive
And you either want to love or you dont