let me sink in the ground
forget me like your sweater in the lost and found
things come around
yeah, my thoughts keep bouncing
just a bunch of sadness and fear it's amounting
to

I'm lost and scared
caught thinking fantasies
that life would be there
having fun like a fair
but I'm riding these rides of despair
and the seat belt is clutched
so I have no escape
I'm stuck in this circle of loneliness and fate
it's not a fairy tale
I won't get a happy ending but what's the ******* point
if I don't even get a happy beginning
or a happy middle
just want to go back to being little
but lifes not a document
you can't undo
people say you control your happiness
and I want to
but they're wrong
because I'm still in the ******* cycle
there's a knife in my chest,
change my name to Michael
the worlds just spiteful

but that's my fault
I control my actions
that's my fault
wish I had no reactions
and it's still my fault
I'm still at fault

blame my ******* head
but it's a part of me
it's my fault

blame everyone around me for leaving me alone
but it was my ******* actions and I chose the wrong to own
so now I sit by myself and my thoughts are malicious
they eat me inside, like cannibals they're vicious
I just want to survive, happy and stupid
but Cupid shot me and despair, so ******* Cupid
it's just a loop and
I can't end it
I don't want a replay
please just end this
take me back

I don't want a part of this