You are hurting me
You left me drowning for weeks
We have been playing pretend for a while now but
You cannot hold my head underwater
And expect me to breathe
Like you are not suffocating me
In this lake of incomprehension.

Two months ago you grabbed my pinkie at that dance and didn't let go, even when the blood rushed out and it turned blue. We had known each other less than twelve hours. You oozed confidence, didn't know the steps and yet you went for it.
I thought ****, he is going to be my best friend.
We are going to eat pop corn and have water guns fight and build fires and laugh for hours

Somehow I was a stranger then and I am a stranger now
In a very different way, the dynamics changed
I cannot believe how easy for you it was

To wrap your hand around my easy heart

And choke me from the inside
And anger is building inside me like a volcano

Anger is seeping into my veins because I have been nothing but nice

Yet
You make me feel like I am a bother
I cannot believe how easy for you it was

To release me and slither away

As if I never mattered at all

As if I never existed at all
You told me I could be your friend
Only if you could be mine

You told me you would be there
Whenever I needed someone to talk to
***** data roaming


And it hurts because
Pretending I do not exist won't make me disappear
Ignoring the fact that I am alive
Doesn't mean I am dead.
I am very much alive
And I just don't understand
How I was your friend then
But I am nothing now
I have been choking on words for days
Wondering how I could talk to you
When we do not communicate anymore
Speaking out
Is always better than bottling feelings in
So I am speaking out in the only other way I know how
I do not expect anything
I just need to do this for my peace of mind
Because I cannot wonder forever
And stay silent
About the reason why you flushed
Our friendship down the drain.