I deserve all of this
To feel worthless
when all I do is make others
feel like ****
But did I really?

I deserve all of this
To be complimented
just to be crumpled like a paper
at the end of the day.

I deserve all of this
To silently suffer at night
and to wake up with a mask,
I deserve it all.

I deserve to be sad
and to cry inside
But that did  not stop me
on seeking the one thing
I do not deserve.