i'm not going to lie and say you were the first thing on my mind when I awoke
but i will say that i'm sitting here 2 weeks later
with my stomach turning and my mind spinning with the
thought of you
and how you'll never love me
you were always the last thing on my mind
before i fell into a temporary sleep
please promise me one day
it'll be permanent
if you asked me if i needed you i would just nod
but that would be an exaggeration of the truth
because i didn't need you
i need somebody
you were the somebody who  left me with my 2 am thoughts to fight off alone
and the demons provoking my mind like your best friend used to
i'm laying here replaying all the signs i could have caught before you left but i'm just glad you actually gave me a second look
but if i could go back and erase the way you held my hand or made me smile, i promise you
**i would