I wanna throw up all the feelings you just shoved down my throat.
All the guilt and confusion.
The loneliness and lost time.
I'm gagging on the pain and all of those hateful thoughts.
They're filling me up and making me sick.
The thought that you're done with me is slowly seeping into my bloodstream and slowing my heart. It's beating so softly trying to push through your crushing grip around my neck.
The cold words dripping from your mouth are turning me pale and all I need is your warm body to wake me from this nightmare you have so perfectly orchestrated right in front of my tear blurred eyes but that soft morning will never come because you have left and you are gone and I am here still watching the limbs of my body begin to finally realize that they are never again to be touched by yours in that familiar and loving way

So I will sleep with every intention of finding you tonight somewhere in my memories and wishing only to find you here in my bed when tomorrow comes.