I feel useless
can't even support my own girl
make it about me when it should be about her
things happen
I try to change
but change is hard because we'll always be the same
I'm selfish, thinking about my self
I'm selfless
don't care about myself
now how does that make any sense
scared to turn 18 and start paying rent
don't know what to do anymore
how to be rich if I'm poor
don't know what to do anymore
it just feels like a chore
I want to make my parents happy
but they're overwhelmed with disappointment
want to be a kid again
want to be reappointed
but they're pointing at me
standing in the spot light
those open door chances
don't know what I've even done right
so I turn left
please show me the key
I'm locked with my mind
and it's ******* destroying me
I'm paranoid and desperate
selfish and annoying
they say be what you want
but it's like they flip a coin
I can't even help it
but help me see
they've been asking me since a kid
but I still don't know what I want to be
but I know what I don't
and the answer is me