Contemplating.
Do I, do I not?

It's possible that I do.
I think I will.
I mean... The lack of communication
doesn't mean
the lack of love,
does it?

You did nothing for me to even
feel the slightest for you.
If anything...
You brought anxiety,
insecurity and pain.

You have this hold on me.
Either that, or I'm just
plain stupid.
Addicted to pain.
Emotional *******?

Leaning towards the latter...
But when did I give a ****?
When did I actually learn??