Oct 2014
Things I have texted you in my mind, or how to be a grown up and **** it up:
1. Pretending I do not exist won't make me disappear
2. You have let me drown for weeks and I thought a nineteen years old boy would understand the need for a conversation. You cannot hold my head underwater and expect me to breathe like you are not suffocating me in your absence.
3. You twist me around your finger and pull away, expecting me to just unwrap myself and let you go. Do you know what happens when you wrap someone and pull? They break. You are slowly breaking me, twisting my feelings too tight to inhale life again.
4. Imagining I do not exist does not mean I am dead.
5. But perhaps if I try hard enough to do the same thing it will make you disappear.
1. Pretending I do not exist won't make me disappear
2. You have let me drown for weeks and I thought a nineteen years old boy would understand the need for a conversation. You cannot hold my head underwater and expect me to breathe like you are not suffocating me in your absence.
3. You twist me around your finger and pull away, expecting me to just unwrap myself and let you go. Do you know what happens when you wrap someone and pull? They break. You are slowly breaking me, twisting my feelings too tight to inhale life again.
4. Imagining I do not exist does not mean I am dead.
5. But perhaps if I try hard enough to do the same thing it will make you disappear.
