I am so hurt

Still so hurt

Those words still cut me everyday

I am surrounded by people but I am not fulfilled

I have conversations but they are all so meaningless and they leave me even emptier

My laughter doesn’t fill me anymore because I can’t even smile with you

There is nothing in this world I want without you

Nowhere I want to be without you

That’s the trouble with doing things

Everywhere I go and turn, we have a memory there

Walking, holding hands, stopping for a kiss, laughing

It hurts me everyday and everywhere and I am so empty

My life is empty and lonely

Coming home to tell everything to no one is painful

Coming home to hear no “I love you” and no “How was your day?” has left me so empty

I don’t know how to be alone

How are you so okay with that? Don’t our memories hurt?

Doesn’t your heart sink when you hear my name or see me?

Don’t you think about how cold it feels when I’m not next to you and how warm it felt when you were holding me?

How do you forget that? That you held me in your arms so many times

This is so painful mostly because there is no one to tell this to

I can’t even call you or message you or anything and that is awful

You have gone from being my everything to being a stranger to me in a few days

My heart doesn’t know how to deal with that

My heart is too fragile and I am too dependent on you

I told you so many times “Don’t ever leave me”

I’ve said it to you while looking you in the eyes and being close to you as is humanly possible and I meant it

I meant that I didn’t know how to live without you

I meant that you are my everything

Oh God you are my everything