You looked at me
Then said I looked gloomy walking these halls
I said nothing what I could have said was scary
Could have said look at my wrists you'll see the hurt
Look in my mind and see the evil depression and suicidal thoughts
Look at my eyes and see the pain filled tears drip from them like a river
Look at my mouth and see the fake smile pressed upon my lips
Hear my words of lies spill never ending from my mouth trying to hide it all
Feel my pulse race when you grab ahold of me and get close
The way my checks flush and I start to shake in fear and confusion
This is not what I'm expecting
Lips hit mine softly but become fiercer and hungry
I'm lost within this kiss and within muddled depths of my mind
Even with fear coursing through my every vein
I can feel the presence of pleasure lurking behind it all
You finally pull away out of breath and look at me ever so softly
I see the love and the hurt in your eyes
The way you try and hide it from me
How could this girl you love  be so...gone or perhaps the  word is lost
She think the exact opposite you say  beautiful she says ugly
Skinny; fat it'll be ok ; never thinks she's gonna make it through the day
You say the only thing you know could have hope of helping/working
"I love you" but today the opposite effect happens
She jerks away hides her face, pulls away like you've slapped her
New fresh hot tears stream from her already warm glistening eyes
You don't know why with every touch she still resists
Then you see the scars buried too deep within her wrists
You don't know what to do
So you sit holding on to her with everything you've got left
She's pulling away trying to escape a confrontation she thinks is coming
She doesn't see what happens next
You use everything ounce of strength you've got left to tug her face to face yours
You don't know what to do anymore but you refuse to give up
You feel so ****** helpless
So you try again and hope that this time it makes it through
You tell her "I LOVE YOU" softly
Then pull her close for a long passionate and unexpected kiss
You feel her warm tears spilling never ending from her eyes
Yet she makes no move to pull away
She's hanging on to you like it's the only thing she gots left
That's when it hits you that it's true she's got nothing left to fight for
She's really given up
She's hanging on from you and you alone
But it's slipping every time she looks back
Her grip loosening
Not a second goes by that she doesn't wish to commit suicide
Or cut or do anything something to take the  pain away
Make this pain and hurt disappear
Just to make herself stop breathing
To just keep bleeding and bleeding
Bleed till the blood runs out
Maybe then just maybe she wouldn't be filled with so much doubt with so much pain and confusion
Then again.......maybe not.
But hell it's worth it to find out right?