But I've already given up. Death drives me. And I can barely write anymore, because my fingers feel like lead, like they're broken. All my bones are crushed beneath everything I gave up on. I feel like gravity weighs millions of pounds, like I've got dead galaxies on my shoulders, made up of all the dreams that died before they ever lived at all.
I just want to fly away.
My cat is the only thing keeping me from letting go anymore.