cold hard emotionless drunken eyes angrily follow childlike bliss waiting for the slightest infraction coiled tiger eyeballing weaker prey in an instant rage sweeps into the world as innocence is replaced with howls of confusion and suffering dust smeared with tears as fear envelopes rationality and a dullness begins – rounded edges cushioned fashioning a safety zone for a stumbling protégé future man of the house dependable rock on which the nuclear family is built guilt wilts dreams and the silt of mud caked pant legs lays scattered across un-mopped floors – angst and crank calls spotty face and misplaced hate small kitten feels the brunt nearly drowned tail-flung around rocks pound no more sound…externally reverse side is more complex multitudes of individual voices create the atmosphere of a theatre, pre-show yet he stands alone contemplating the conversations and the remnants of a gifted kitten – slowly watching the hands dead fathers watch fixated on the doors breath bated cold steel against his leg flashes of pain and self-loathing as the first children run out into the sun all the spender of a recess on Friday is replaced with horror as lead shreds polyester blends and the screams of the living drown the ruckus in his head is this what peace feels like –