10/26/13

I realized that I loved you,
As I watched you walk away.
I just stood there watching,
With so much yet to say.

My brain flooded with memories,
Both the brightest and the black.
Each feeding the flame,
That burned to have you back.

Every word ever spoken,
Was seen in a new, white light.
The epiphany was painful,
It cast me into night.

I realized that I wanted you,
As I watched you walk away.
You were the desire of my dreams,
And my yearning every day.

You were not what I had believed,
Such a fool I had become.
My blindness and my ego,
Caused it all to be undone.

The pain began to build,
As I realized my new fate.
A chasm deep inside my heart,
The one you would soon create.

I realized you were perfect,
As I watched you walk away.
That I had never seen a flaw,
I admired and loved your every way.

The curtain shut on my show,
When you ceased as audience.
Left standing, baffled, on the stage,
Sifting through the evidence.

It was true you were the beauty,
Without you, my show was dim.
You brought light to that around you,
And a tingle to the skin.

I realized my final fallacy,
As I watched you walk away.
I had failed without compare,
With nothing left but to pray.

Clinging to my convictions,
Struggling to keep what was left.
So ******* within myself,
Contemplating the ease of death.

Forgiveness would never come,
I was quick to see.
This was a loss life knows but once,
Not for you, but me.

I realized that I loved you,
As I watched you walk away.
I knew that it was over,
Today was my last day.