I do not know if I love you
Or merely the idea of you
Would it be hypocritical for a girl who does not believe in love
to say this?
I don’t want you to think that this is a promise,
Because I don’t want to break that
I don’t want to rip your heart out
Or for you to stop the shallow beats of mine
When I am around you my knees can’t stop shaking
My hands are searching for something to hold
My heart condition worsens as I see you
The pounding in my chest is nothing to laugh at oh dear it pains me
All I want is to be near you
But do I love you?
Is love even real
Or is this some messed up infatuation that hurts me