I run into your ruined eyes like a body that has given in
like the soul turning to death, when he lays a smile upon its cheek
I mourn the thoughts that once progressed through my head
those butterflies breeding inside of me in the seconds
before I knew I would walk up to you
and you would touch me
and I smell you
and I feel your warmth
the small hairs on your body rub against mine
so female; you
so love;  you
I hear you in the deepest silence
burried beneath all this dirt and the highest building
I jump off with my mind
to come to you, to go deeper then the ground
I drown myself in hopes of finding you in a place
where lungs cannot breathe
that is where we come from
a place forbidden
a place that we are raised to believe that we cant go
and these people walk aimless
oh but we know
we know
I  run into your death
like a flock of birds heading south in the winter
your black feathers touch mine
and I retreat to a land where my skin melts
with the thought of you
a place where
I
I
deteriorate
like leaves falling off the trees in autumn
I dont know how to hold myself together anymore
I am paralyzed, stricken
yet I am shaking
I
my love am in a state of deep panic
eat my words
**** my love
stress my emotions
and **** my dove