I lied.
You were my first love. if you weren't, I should not be crying at 12 midnight.
I lied.
It was not okay to give up everything we had.
I lied.
I blame every possible thing that hindered us.
I lied.
When I told myself that I'm going to find someone better.
I lied.
I still want you in my life.
I lied.
I have not moved on and I know I never will.

But the greatest lie was letting me feel that everything was okay when it was all a disaster.