So you think yourself a prince alight with fire, dynamic in your expression of unlimited creation? But what of the fear and obstacles rising perpetually because of your unskillful means and application? What if your timing is off by a moment and impatience leads to more than one undoing? Recognize that you're uneasy. How you long to be free from unfairly mounting regrets or mourning! Your current approach relies too much on will-power alone; find another way, as will-power alone is not enough. Undam the waters of life; go deep within and seek the light. The world is beckoning, waiting patiently for you to realize that you are never not becoming; you will always be renewed. Seek the Truth, without clinging to the sensation of discovering truth. Seek the Love, without clinging to the sensation of realizing that love. Seek the Joy, without confusing intensity for a thing's reality.
You wish for changes and emotional revolutions, to cast aside old worn-out thoughts and constitutions. You wish to master your psychological well-being, tactfully blending your intelligence and imagination. But what about the path you thought you were still on? Do you fear you may collapse during essential maturation? Know that you don't know where your going. You are out of touch with reality -- place things in proper perspective! Don't delay the inevitable cycling of completion if you would desire your hopes to come to fruition. Seek stability in your home, and nurturing connections. Learn to trust and ground your feelings in satisfaction.
The two choices stand before you; but which one will you choose? The outer path of material unfolding is easily observed. The inner path of contemplation is a little more reserved. You can search for it, ask for it, or even knock right on the door, but you can never open the door, through excessive use of force. If you sit patiently, showing all the virtue that you've practiced -- if you have the courage to dare to ask the difficult questions; if you have the will to seek the uncomfortable revelations; if you have the persistence to remain silent long enough to know -- then the door will open for you, without the slightest hesitation.