I saw you yesterday
First in my own face shrinking in the mirror
Like I do every morning

Then in your garage

We smoked until it hurt
Until we were tired
Until we could talk about that night without grieving

"I'd give anything to go back to that night, just that night"

The night we hurt each other
The night we gave each other something that no one else could understand

I lit your cigarette hazily in the backyard because your hands were covered in gasoline
I forget what we talked about

What I do remember was the expression on his face when he showed up unannounced
hurt
angry

I don't know why I stayed
Maybe because I couldn't move
Maybe because I was scared for you

He was screaming so loudly, and I heard your plants break

Then he came outside
"let me ask you one question"
I laughed at him
I told him I wouldn't go
That he was dangerous
Crazy

I proclaimed your innocence

But you came outside
With tears in your eyes and your throat bright red
You asked me to leave

So I did