I will not feel relief my inside’s stress tsunamis don’t have an off button they will catastrophically annihilate anything I believe to be okay I wish they didn’t Oh fairy godmother, Oh yahweh, god, ******* jesus himself grant me wishes, grant the whole ******* world wishes because we’re tired I can’t even imagine the fuel debt of starving african children or stockholders losing what they haven’t bought yet when I, a financially privileged and well fed college student can’t get through 3 hours without trying to prevent another stress tsunami
Do not tell me everything will be okay It is not what i want to hear I want to hear bullets in my head girls, screaming at the sight of my right arm gushing niagra falls of blood I want god to **** my **** I hope every therapist and so called good friend can understand these words when i say Depression will never be okay Feeling hundred year old brick buildings crushing upon my chest, my brain ransacked by rubble and my heart, an empty sack will never be okay