I close my eyes in wait.
I’m waiting.
Waiting
Waiting for the hurt to give way to understanding
Waiting for dismay to give way to hope
Waiting for light to penetrate the dark
Waiting for gloom to pave way for glee
I’m still waiting.
I’m trying.
Trying not to feel. Not to think.
Trying to numb the pain that numbs my senses.
Trying to keep going. Believing. Loving.
Trying to overcome the contradictions that challenge everything I put my trust in.
Yes, I’m trying.
And then you come along.
Stare me in the eye, assuring.
You calm me, soothe, promise of a better land.
I believe you.
I feel no need to try anymore.
There’s no more waiting.
Who said death isn’t beautiful?