I waited Loyal, by the window for my prince to return from battle Or for you to come home from work But it seemed to feel the same (As) I waited To find solace in smiling eyes That never failed to flip the switch So I could see the light in me
I mimicked Poker faces and faraway places In accents we wished could be ours You taught me to want more than now can offer And I’m anxious to see where later will lead
I idolized This deity more worthy than any I’ve found And when they asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up I said, “A technical writer, just like my dad” And it didn’t matter what ever the **** that was Or its salary Because, to me, being like you was the best thing I could do
I needed Your bedtime songs to find sleep in the dark With a voice that somehow sounded like pride When you spoke of me Warmth When you spoke to me Knowledge And resilience And a difference All your own
I detached
Slowly
Without noticing
Gaps
Where there were once bridges
Realizing
Too late
I was too old
To hide under your covers
When the bad dreams came
Too old
To cuddle up on your lap
And squeeze you so tight you could never get away
But it was me Getting away Without knowing Where to go
I felt Time locking me out Away from you To find me And I know I’ve ****** up in the process And I know I’ll **** up in the process But if the apple doesn't fall far from the tree How great that means I may be
You are the reason I can be who I am and there is nothing I am more grateful for than that