Speaking the words I use to net the tide of my emotions
The break on contact with the air,
Embers into ash
almost as the sounds cross
the tip of my tongue
and melt like snowflakes on your eyelashes
I want to tell you of a fire I can't feel when your lips touch mine
of a hunger that makes me crazy and driven and alive with need
it'as imagined and as real as any dream
I want to tell you I'm afraid of falling
but it's not the physical kind
I'm terrified that one day I'll lose contact
I'll reach out and to touch someone but I won't feel it
I'll hug someone so tight but it's useless
I'm the one who is gone
Do you ever feel terrible pain
sickening and twisting inside of you
I do
I pick it up and I **** it down and wrap it all around me
I let it burn into my skin like the teeth of a lover
eating little hole in me until I put it away
back into the box in the corner of my mind
If I can't have fire I want blood
my blood
filling in the cracks of my teeth and coating my lips
iron feels so tangible in every sense given
I want to feel more than skin pressed against me
but my sould can't leave my flesh
I want to chase something more than a lie
but everything I catch turns to dust in my hands