my mind bleeds
thoughts bleak
"what are you seeking?"
imperfect like old floor boards,
always creaking
sleeping to escape
only to wake up to myself
square like a crate
put my mind on the shelf
cause I don't wanna listen to my thoughts
they rip me up like paper
emotions running bold
layers deep like a wafer
I just want to run away
I think I'd feel safer

but I can't
because you can't run from yourself
stuck looking in the mirror
wishing you were somebody else
deal with how you cope
and deal how you wish you blended
let me be someone else
because I just wanna end this

I'm tireless, unmotivated, a failure
send me out to sea, send me off like a sailor
I can't breathe, pass me my inhaler
I don't want to breathe

see you later

I can't tell between ****** teenage angst
and my own emotion
but turn off my mind I'll show you happiness in motion
I'm abused by my thoughts
so now I need a counselor
looking for love and thinking that I found her
well it looks to be another loss
paint me out of your life like you're Bob Ross
always jumping out of the way like criss cross
but me, I'm stuck to my mind like tree moss

point me to surgery
remove my mind
I'll show you a sad burglary
internally, an emergency
faking happy like perjury

but I guess it's not always fake
but it's not consistent like waves in a lake

I just want some motivation
and satisfaction for achievement
but I can't think straight like bereavement
I just want some help, can't you see it?

I just want some help, I really need it