never underestimate anticipation let it be like the clicking of a rollercoaster car as it rises to the top of a hill steady climb right before the brink of freefall and as you shiver quiver as it wells up inside inhibitions stress thoughts in general all disappear and as you realize that there is no turning back truly locked in for what is next an odd sense of calm overcomes and as you raise your hands and let out top-of-your-lung breaths gravity attempts to pull you down back to earth but with anticipation what's meant to be fast chaotic excess becomes an even steeper climb all the way to cloud nine