if I
never drove those roads
Answered the late-night phone calls
Sat and watched the stars
Just to feel human again
Or took walks at night
Just so our footsteps would match

If I
never sat up worried at night
Because somebody wasn’t okay

If I
never played my guitar for you
I wouldn’t think about you every time I play it
Where you sat
What you said to me when I was done
It escapes my mind how something
Can just crumble and fall to the ground

It’s laughable now but
If I
never fell asleep
Well of course I’d be tired
But I’d still be sane
You’re within my sight
When I close my eyes
When I turn off the light

“If” is a word that makes us think
About the past
And what could’ve happened
What would’ve
Or what should’ve happened
If a “if” was a wish
And a wish was a want
And a want was a need
Then I could dream happily
Only if…