Dec 2010
I treat her like running water
Vital for my life
Dowsing myself completely in her like
Her hugs meant going for a swim
I can be as large as the world
But I am still, 70% her
The next time I go hiking
I want to fill a water bottle up with her liquid kiss
So, when I’m at the highest point
I can look at an abstract painted sky and drink you in
I will drink and feel her like palms
Pressing down my throat
I carry you inside me
Like you were pulling
The rip chords of my bones
Making my lungs breathe
Vital for my life
Her name is a heartbeat
Pumping hope into my stream
Making my body filled with parasites
Whose only intentions were to
Infect my body and make it better than before
You build me up
Her voice is my narrative
Reading me stories so I know
Exactly how to approach all situations: fact or fiction
I want to publish an autobiography
But I want you to write
You’re that voice in my head that
Helps me make decisions
And it shakes because
Her name gives me migraines
Pills can make it quiet
But I can’t ignore the fact that
I have been convulsing in my core
So hard it feels like skin touching
She slips into four-inch heels
Crafted from my body
And the backs are extensions of my arms
Holding her up from this world
Because she belongs four-inches
Above everyone else in this world
She wears such a **** black dress
It reminds me of all the high school dances
That I never invited her too
And it’s sown together by a tailor called
“I wish I knew you back then”
And the brand is “Would life have turned out different”
Her name is a superhero
I jump off 30 story buildings daily
Just so she can catch me
And I can see her
She’s got heat vision
And it makes me ignite when it’s
Five degrees outside and I’m standing in
Half snow and half corn field
She has incredible strength
To pick up my past and hold it
So I can forget about it for a while
And just enjoy being alive
She has the ability, to tell me to close my eyes
And it feels like flying
So let me drink you in
Become 70% me
Tell me a story
And infect me
Wear that dress and
Dance with me just once
Catch me all the times I jump
Because baby I’m not suicidal
This is just how I feel
Vital for my life
Dowsing myself completely in her like
Her hugs meant going for a swim
I can be as large as the world
But I am still, 70% her
The next time I go hiking
I want to fill a water bottle up with her liquid kiss
So, when I’m at the highest point
I can look at an abstract painted sky and drink you in
I will drink and feel her like palms
Pressing down my throat
I carry you inside me
Like you were pulling
The rip chords of my bones
Making my lungs breathe
Vital for my life
Her name is a heartbeat
Pumping hope into my stream
Making my body filled with parasites
Whose only intentions were to
Infect my body and make it better than before
You build me up
Her voice is my narrative
Reading me stories so I know
Exactly how to approach all situations: fact or fiction
I want to publish an autobiography
But I want you to write
You’re that voice in my head that
Helps me make decisions
And it shakes because
Her name gives me migraines
Pills can make it quiet
But I can’t ignore the fact that
I have been convulsing in my core
So hard it feels like skin touching
She slips into four-inch heels
Crafted from my body
And the backs are extensions of my arms
Holding her up from this world
Because she belongs four-inches
Above everyone else in this world
She wears such a **** black dress
It reminds me of all the high school dances
That I never invited her too
And it’s sown together by a tailor called
“I wish I knew you back then”
And the brand is “Would life have turned out different”
Her name is a superhero
I jump off 30 story buildings daily
Just so she can catch me
And I can see her
She’s got heat vision
And it makes me ignite when it’s
Five degrees outside and I’m standing in
Half snow and half corn field
She has incredible strength
To pick up my past and hold it
So I can forget about it for a while
And just enjoy being alive
She has the ability, to tell me to close my eyes
And it feels like flying
So let me drink you in
Become 70% me
Tell me a story
And infect me
Wear that dress and
Dance with me just once
Catch me all the times I jump
Because baby I’m not suicidal
This is just how I feel
