I've been staring at this screen for so long now...

The glare from the blinding screen
has burned it's image into my eyes.
The letters of your name,
rubbed away from my keyboard.

It's 4am and the sun is rising,
i've not slept, i don't plan on it.
Your silence is too loud to sleep through,
words you never said keeping me awake.

But i know if i had you,
it wouldn't be the same.
The lies and the tales of our life
are too ******* deep
too ******* complicated
and a whole lot of simple ***** ups.
But nobody wins this,
there is no version of this where
either of us come out on top.

It's 7am, i'm late for work and my coffee's cold.