Why can’t things ever work out just the way they’re planned?
Why does life always play its mischievous hand?
We try so hard to get everything together,
Is it going to be like this forever?
I cannot take much more of this,
No matter what it something always goes amiss,
Every time we unlock a door,
I open it and there’s never a floor,
I’m just left standing there looking at the gold,
With no way to reach it just feeling so cold,
What cruel entity could that torturous fate be?
And what have I done to make him hate me?
All I want is for things to work out,
But I’m always left with nothing but a need to shout,
Everything I want always gets so near,
Then right as I grasp for it it’s no longer here,
I toss and turn trying to sleep at night,
Why must I always struggle and fight,
It’s taught me so much but it’s never any use,
Because I’m always still fighting to keep off the noose,
These lessons are nothing if I cannot use them,
These lessons are nothing if I cannot endure them.
Do you want me to give up and simply fall?
Do you want me to give up and end it all?
I’m beginning to doubt this is for my best,
I’m begging to think this is the work of some pest,
A human mind can only take so much torment,
It’s throwing me into a great descent,
I hope I have what it takes to make it through,
There are darker times ahead and I know not what to do,
I feel lost and alone with dwindling strength,
But these problems seem to gain in length,
What must I learn what must I do?
I don’t even want to begin anew,
I don’t even want to make it through,
What do I do?
What… do I do?