Aug 2014
You are the first person I have truly loved with all my heart. You are the first boy to ever see the real me. To know my thoughts, feelings, fears and everything like that. We started off as best friends and you saved my from myself, something I should’ve done, but instead you did. I didn’t like you at first, but then I began to. And you liked me. Your words were sweet like honeydew and I fell to my knees at how good words could sound coming out of my mouth. You would mutter beautiful after you kissed my lips and my forehead and told me I was perfect in your eyes. I saw the twinkle in your eyes and the warm smile on your lips as you held me and I knew I was home. I felt safe against your chest and your arms around me that nothing else mattered in the world. Kissing you for the first time was nerve racking and I thought was heart was coming out of my throat but it didn’t and I wrapped my arms around you and kissed you.
You told me I was the first girl you ever felt this way towards and it made me melt. I never felt this way towards a boy and I fell apart in your arms, showing you every bit of me. And you loved me. I saw the bright light in your eyes and I felt I had found my sun because I was the moon in the dark sky that needed light. I felt that you really didn’t know what love was since your parents divorced at 2 so I made it my job to make sure you did. And I did. I loved you with every fiver in my whole ******* body I couldn’t breathe and I thought of you every moment and everything just felt right and okay with you.
But, all good things must come to the end and I fear we are at the end of this first love story. We seem to be falling apart and I am terrified of what comes next. If we do end things, I never want you to treat a girl like you treated me at times. If I’m not the one and you love another girl and you’re looking at her blue eyes that you wish were my brown you better ******* love her and you’ll kiss her lips but will taste mine instead and touch her hair that suddenly feels like mine, love her. I hope when you hold her you notice the difference in height and realize it’s not me and I’m sitting in my room trying to get over you as I look at the moon and wish I could big and white in the sky and beautiful.
But if we don’t end things and fix us and you are truly the one then I want you to make up for what we did wrong when we were 16 because we are 16 now and this is teenage love and it’s supposed to be messy and wrong and weird and heart wrenching but it is the most amazing feeling in the whole world loving you. When those words left my lips, it was like another world I didn’t know existed opened up and you were the center and everything revolved around you and I was okay with being your only moon and you my only sun.
I fell in love with every part of you: your eyes, lips, laugh, arms, hands, legs and I hate to sound cheesy but even your nose. I fell in love with you like kids fall in love with their favorite cartoon or how a mother loves her child no matter what they do. I still love you and I know that won’t change for a long time, but I love, I swearing to ******* God I love you more than any other person in the whole world and beyond that. I don’t care what anyone says. We are still young and learning but it will all be okay. We will be okay. I will make sure we will be okay.
You told me I was the first girl you ever felt this way towards and it made me melt. I never felt this way towards a boy and I fell apart in your arms, showing you every bit of me. And you loved me. I saw the bright light in your eyes and I felt I had found my sun because I was the moon in the dark sky that needed light. I felt that you really didn’t know what love was since your parents divorced at 2 so I made it my job to make sure you did. And I did. I loved you with every fiver in my whole ******* body I couldn’t breathe and I thought of you every moment and everything just felt right and okay with you.
But, all good things must come to the end and I fear we are at the end of this first love story. We seem to be falling apart and I am terrified of what comes next. If we do end things, I never want you to treat a girl like you treated me at times. If I’m not the one and you love another girl and you’re looking at her blue eyes that you wish were my brown you better ******* love her and you’ll kiss her lips but will taste mine instead and touch her hair that suddenly feels like mine, love her. I hope when you hold her you notice the difference in height and realize it’s not me and I’m sitting in my room trying to get over you as I look at the moon and wish I could big and white in the sky and beautiful.
But if we don’t end things and fix us and you are truly the one then I want you to make up for what we did wrong when we were 16 because we are 16 now and this is teenage love and it’s supposed to be messy and wrong and weird and heart wrenching but it is the most amazing feeling in the whole world loving you. When those words left my lips, it was like another world I didn’t know existed opened up and you were the center and everything revolved around you and I was okay with being your only moon and you my only sun.
I fell in love with every part of you: your eyes, lips, laugh, arms, hands, legs and I hate to sound cheesy but even your nose. I fell in love with you like kids fall in love with their favorite cartoon or how a mother loves her child no matter what they do. I still love you and I know that won’t change for a long time, but I love, I swearing to ******* God I love you more than any other person in the whole world and beyond that. I don’t care what anyone says. We are still young and learning but it will all be okay. We will be okay. I will make sure we will be okay.
