I try to unwind my mind
But time
It passes so quickly
Never fast enough
For life's next big rush
I want to look at the stars,
see the sky
But instead
Inside I hide
Hide from the my mind,
which crushes my soul
These feelings that take ahold
Scare me to death
Always threatening my next breath
It feels pathetic
Pity
When you seem so well liked and witty
Is it all a lie
Or can I evolve to be someone who can actually try
Not sit back and wait
Always scared to enter the gate
Take the initiative
Jump the gun
For how much longer am I young
Young like the sun in the sky
Doing whatever to feel the high
The high of happiness,
so beautiful
But ever fleeting
Leaving life with little meaning
I hate this picture I crave
Will it ever force me to be brave
Brave like the people who don't sulk in their room
Brave like the people learning to bloom
Bloom like a flower
of which I adore
Can I build a fire inside
A fire to create the more
The more from life for which I crave
Or to my insecurities will I always be slave