My skin hurts
                        tingles at the touch
                         stands on end
My stomach aches
                         full of only air
                         screeching out of hunger
My body feels weak
                         tripping at each step
                         gasping for breath
But my emotions are even worse
And so my physical pain feels nice

And so that's all I pray for
feeling

Because for brief instant that is what I lacked

lifelessness

And it was worse than any physical pain

when he told me he could never love me again