I have this vision of stabbing myself in the stomach.
Everytime something bad happens to me. Something I can't tolerate.
Suddenly and unintentionally ,  
out of no where I start imagining that I'm stabbing myself in the stomach again and again and it is bringing peace to me.
And I feel so much better after stabbing myself.
I feel that I'm being relieved of the burdens on me.
That , the world is right.
But the only problem is that I'm not there.
By relieving myself of the problem.
I also relieve myself of my life.
And thus it just ends.
Abruptly.