There are pictures and you are young like you're my big sister changing my diaper or washing me in a sink do you remember? Me neither that was millenniums ago there is endless time and endless memories and endless problems between then and now and back then do you remember? I know you do you told me I cut my own hair can you see? It's just like my Barbie doll do you remember? You want me to be spoiled I am the only girl I still am my own little oven but I left the spatula in and broke it and then years and years later I wanted to be good I made you dinner it was too heavy and I fell in with it I wanted you happy you held me in the car while I cried with the burns on my skin do you remember? I try not to but also we were both young you flipped the car and we were both sideways but now we're both old she hit us head on we're both hurt am I dead? Do you remember? Do you remember how you thought I was and you cried over me until I woke up a few days later do you remember? Did you love me then? You loved me before do you remember? When our dads died in the same month the same year just days apart you held me like we were going to die if you let go do you remember? You made me leave you don't love me anymore I live with your mom now you made me leave I don't have a family anymore you used to love me DO YOU REMEMBER? I DON'T EVER WANT TO FEEL BAD FOR MYSELF BUT I WANT TO SCREAM I DON'T WANT THE ATTENTION BUT I WANT TO SIT IN A DARK ROOM UNTIL I AM 0% WATER AND NOT 70% YOU USED TO LOVE ME YOURE SUPPOSED TO LOVE ME YOURE THE ONLY PERSON IN THE ENTIRE WORLD WHO IS SUPPOSED TO LOVE ME UNCONDITIONALLY but you don't so will anyone ever? I'm sorry I yelled but I am three and I scraped my knee there is blood dripping down my leg you wiped my tears I'm seventeen now and I've scraped my arm there is a pool on the bathroom floor good thing I know how to clean why aren't you wiping my tears? You used to, mom, do you remember? Can I come home?