It's hard to sit in silence
I don't want the world to see me in pain
But my doctor told me if I share it it might hurt less

When I'm lying here next to her
We're never close enough
She puts up pillow walls and uses a separate blanket

I'm losing this battle
Feeling desperate and falling deeper

I can't even explain what this is
I know I'm being pressed down by something
It's just too dark to see it's face

Have you ever felt like letting go of everything you have?
Have you ever been satisfied?

She sat next to me until I could find the words
I still couldn't explain
But she knew


She calms the fight inside of me
And pulls the rag from my face so that I can breathe

I can't even explain what this is

She holds me down and keeps me steady
Without her I'd of drowned by now
She holds me over always until

(a/o - She always holds me over everything'?')

Most days we'll just lay there
Not much else to do
I'm not such the socialite
She's not really the social type

Not so sure if I'm lucky to have you