Today is the day
One year ago you took the fatal fall
"I love you and this isn't fair
But I don't deserve to breathe"

The letter you wrote
Your suicide note
Is still embedded in my mind

I get so weak and break down
Legs shaking, breathing heavy
My tears running down the picture of you
The physical pain I felt and still feel is so real

There isn't a day that goes by
that I don't break down
That I do not scream your name
And hope you will return to me again

Do tell me doctor,
Do you have a prescription that can mend this too
That can heal my soul and aching body
Because I've tried all I can

I'll heal myself
Through lighters and blades
Leaving my skin feeling torn and burnt
Just like how it was when you'd touch me

B.G.K