i must be such a fool

to think you had changed an inch.

i must have pulled out the razor
again
and slowly dragged it against
my skin

because i must be a fool
i come back over and over

this silly ferris wheel needs to stop
because when i see you.
you're the same
your eyes trick me. but what else is
new?

your words seem comforting.
but then you push me away.
and i'm once again on the ferris
wheel

round and round. your face appears
in fragments.

i swear i'm going crazy
you promise me
but it's only filled with
emptiness

and unless the buzzing sensation takes
over

i mean nothing to you.

i was never the one with problems
but i created all of yours

you're my pain. you're my nightmare.
you're my revenge.

you're my greatest fear