Before the sun peaks through the sky Lighting all the things I wish to hide Before the early birds rise There is a tranquility The silence is eerie Calmness settles over me I find peace and acceptance Within my incongruity
The uproar in my mind Is temporary replaced with feelings so sublime I feel my body glide Levitate to meet the sunrise I have no need for explanations or external reassurance When kindness lies within my own eyes
Walking down the dirt roads of this ghost town I think of the rarity of this complacency My eyes are no longer crusted shut I feel no need to reflect or recollect I merely observe the beauty Enjoy the present unfold before me And wish for the apocalypse to come To make this absence of human activity a permanent reality
I cherish the foiling of connectedness and singularity Alone but always together The wildlife waking in the cheatgrass soothes me into serenity reassuring me that the sounds of consciousness will not affect this new-found levity I come to accept the ticking of time And I radiate optimism and readiness for the day
I wait for the bus with patience in place of anticipation I love driving through town relying on others to get around As long as I am not the one in control I am comfortable being lost and directionless I enjoy the distraction of the passing landscape It seems too immense to be a manifestation of my imagination The way it removes me from my sad body Into something much more than me The beauty of the world is limitless It envelopes me Sending me to equivocal destinations
I feel this weightlessness become a headache And soon I come back into my body And into the thoughts and obligations I try to avoid Fearing that this moment of happiness Is slipping from my reality I try to find some peace of mind but I have no motivation to fight for an illusion I return to my old darkness Avoiding the light and the images it shows
With no basis for its existence I begin to see all displays of optimism as noxious naivety promising but never quite what it seems when it comes to me It's always superfical and fleeting Like the affection of my mistress It is devoid of any true meaning